Thursday, May 1, 2008

2 Months & Counting


Uncle Brian comes home from his mission in a little less than 2 months. What started out as a very neat and organized activity has recently taken on a style all its own. It's hard to see but the first year or so Jake and I were very diligent to make sure we put our star sticker on every day. I even made a cute rainbow pattern out of the stars - until they ran out. Now, for the past several months we've used more stickers on the kids than the chart! Can you guess which stickers Julie has helped put on all by herself? :) One of my first blog posts was about how much Jake loved stickers and I guess Julie is following in his footsteps!

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Spontaneous Utah Trip


For my birthday present, Jeremy quickly arranged for Julie and me to fly along with my parents to Utah for the week. We bought my tickets Tuesday afternoon and I flew out at 5:30am Wednesday morning! We had originally planned on driving out as a family this same week but with all that will happen after the baby is born, we felt Jeremy needed to save his vacation days and can canceled the trip. Jeremy saw how bummed I was about not going and covertly arranged for me to go anyway. Spontaneous trips are not easy to pull off alone when you have two kids, so I have a few people to thank:
  • My parents: Thanks for all your help on the plane, babysitting so I could go to the temple, putting up with Julie's screams and just overall help with Julie while we were out there!
  • LaDawn: Thanks for watching Jake on Monday for my doctor's appointment and again that same week while Jeremy went to work. It's definitely our turn now.
  • Anna: You called to see why I missed play group and somehow got roped in to babysitting Jake while Calvin was sleeping. Thanks for letting Jer go to the Elder's quorum activity. Hopefully we can babysit Calvin sometime soon too.
  • Josh and Shauna: I'm not sure if I spelled your names right, but we still appreciate you taking on kid #3 for the day while Jeremy was in Bend!
  • Tammi: We keep trying unsuccessfully to arrange a play date lately and when we finally do, it's really just you taking on another kid while you host a bunch of people at your house! Thanks and next time you need a baby sitter, you know who to call!
  • Saundra and Sam: Thank you for so graciously agreeing to let Julie and I stay at your house on such short notice. I'll be thinking of you guys when I watch American Idol tonight.
  • Uncle Tom, Aunt Beth, and Jeffrey: Thank you so much for letting me use your Jeep while I was in town. Being able to get around on my own was invaluable!
  • Family in Utah: It was so great to see all of you, thanks for rearranging your schedules at the last minute just so you could see us!
  • Jer: Thanks for putting this all together and helping celebrate my birthday with Grandma Brown - I couldn't have asked for a better birthday present.
  • I know there's more I'm forgetting - if so, I apologize and thank you too! haha ;)

Prenatal Intervention

This is a slightly later update than I would have liked, thanks to my trip (more on that later), but I promised I'd keep everyone informed so here we go.

The first thing our doctor at the Maternal and Fetal Medicine Clinic here in Eugene asked me was, "Have you decided if you're going to California?" Needless to say, the question caught me completely off guard. What he really wanted to ask me was whether or not we had decided to opt-in to a prenatal intervention program for our baby.

Prenatal intervention in our case would consist of a procedure where they try and open up our baby's aortic valve with a "balloon" while he is still in the womb. This is obviously very risky for the baby (they would go through the outer wall of his heart to get to the valve), and apparently even for me. The hope of this prenatal procedure is to allow "flow" through the left side of his heart, which would hopefully stimulate the left side of his heart to grow before he is born.

At our appointment with the cardiologist in Portland (after our fetal echo), we asked her opinion on the prenatal intervention procedure. She is not a big fan of prenatal intervention in general because the last baby the sent down there did not make it; it sounds like that is more the norm than exception.

As it turns out, the cardiologist said our baby is not a good candidate for the procedure anyway. The procedure only focuses on one valve and our baby has a constriction in both valves on the left side of his heart. Even if we were to go ahead with the procedure, it is unlikely we would get good "flow" because that second valve would still be constricted.

Needless to say, we've decided against prenatal intervention. Right now, we are making plans for our baby to go through the three open heart surgeries, starting with the Norwood Procedure. After researching transplants, that avenue feels like more of a dead end. We will still have transplant as a backup option if the Norwood procedure doesn't go well. We are very grateful for all the fasting, prayers and time our family and friends put in to help us make this decision. Obviously there is still time to change our opinion if new information arises, but for now we feel this is the best course of action for our baby and our family.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Matters of the Heart

It's a very surreal experience when you go in for a routine ultrasound and things turn out to be anything but routine. The good news about our ultrasound is we found out we're having a BOY. We chose to find out the sex because of the bigger news we received: Our baby has a congenital heart defect.

After an amnio (which I swore I'd never get) and another ultrasound at a maternal-fetal medicine specialist here in Eugene, they were unable to officially diagnose our baby's problem and sent us to Doernbecher's Children's Hospital in Portland. We had a fetal echocardiogram which diagnosed our son's heart defect as Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome.

I'm writing this post for friends and family members so I can share the information we've received over the last few weeks. It's a hard thing to explain over the phone under such emotional circumstances. It's taken me awhile to get up the courage to even post this. I don't mind people knowing about our situation, in fact I think it has helped us to talk to other people about it. At the same time, it's not something I'm likely to bring up in casual conversation. "Oh by the way, our baby has a heart defect." is just not something I see myself saying.

I would love to answer anyone's questions. And we are so thankful and truly appreciate the outpouring of love, concern, and support we've received from our family and friends.

Before I get into the specifics of HLHS (Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome), I first want to share a bit of good news: Our amnio results came back this week and our baby's heart defect looks to be an isolated incident (no other genetic defects they look for in the test were found) which means the doctors will go ahead and operate. Apparently there are some genetic problems associated with HLHS (which thankfully our son doesn't have) that are severe enough to make surgery pointless.

Sidenote: I'm not a doctor, any information I provide below is just gleaned from what I've learned. I'm putting things into words that make sense to me. Head here if you want to get more technical details.

What is HLHS? A valve on the left side of his heart did not form properly and is too thick/stiff to let any significant amount of blood to flow through the left side of his heart. Without blood flow, the left side does not have to work and therefore isn't growing. The left side of your heart takes oxygenated blood from the lungs and pumps it to the body.

Right now while he's in the womb, this defect is not causing him any problems. He is perfectly happy in there. All of the normal things all babies have in place to let them grow and thrive without using their lungs in the womb are also allowing him to grow and thrive even when he's not using the left half of his heart. When he is born, those connections will close off and he will not be able to get oxygen to his body without medical intervention.

How do you get HLHS? As I mentioned earlier, there are several genetic disorders associated with HLHS, none of which our baby has. Other factors our doctors asked me about were drug use, smoking, and German Measles - none of which I was personally exposed to. The only other explanation we received is there might have been unknown carcinogens I was unknowingly exposed to during pregnancy - in other words, they don't know. Our pediatric cardiologist was trying to explain that sometimes these things just happen and she literally used the phrased, "foreordained." Our doctor said the risk we had for a heart defect with this pregnancy was somewhere around 1%, and our risk for future children will now be somewhere around 4% just because it has happened with this pregnancy.

The American Heart Association has some interesting statistics on congenital heart defects:
  • Thousands of babies are born each year with cardiovascular defects.
    • Of these, 4–8 percent have hypoplastic left heart syndrome.
  • From 1994 to 2004 death rates for congenital cardiovascular defects declined 31.6 percent, while the actual number of deaths declined 25.4 percent.
  • About 650,000 to 1,300,000 people in the United States with cardiovascular defects are alive today.
What are your options if you have HLHS? After our diagnosis, the Pediatric Cardiologist gave us four options:
  1. Terminate the pregnancy. (This is not an option we considered)
  2. Carry to term and do nothing after he is born - He would pass away in as little as a day to a week after birth because his heart would be unable to get oxygenated blood to the rest of his body. (Another option we did not consider)
  3. Operate - Our son would have an operation within 24-72 hours after birth called the Norwood Procedure. This is the first in a series of operations (usually 3). The second operation is done around 6-8 months, and the third when he is two-three years old. The ultimate goal of these procedures is to have his body pump blood straight to his lungs, then transfer oxygenated blood to the right side of his heart and allow the right side to pump blood to the body. The right side of the heart will be doing double duty and therefore he will have physical limitations for the rest of his life, as well as a high probability of a shortened life span. He will never have a normal heart. This is a fairly new procedure and they only have patients about 15 years out from the surgery to study. If things do not go well with the operations at any point, there is still the possibility of having a heart transplant (which is the next option).
  4. Heart Transplant - They do not perform heart transplants at Dorenbechers and we would have to move either to Seattle or Southern California before he is born. He would not get on the waiting list until he is born, and there is no way of knowing how long he will wait. If/when he gets a heart, there is a risk for the rest of his life of his body rejecting the new heart. He would be on medication that lowers his immune system to reduce the risk of rejection. We are still waiting to get more detailed information about infant heart transplants (survival statistics etc.), but since Doernbechers does not perform transplants, we have to go through longer channels to learn things. We will keep you updated when we learn more information. During my personal research online, I came across some washington transplant statistics as well as a more long term graph of survival patients at the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota.
Right now Jeremy and I are fairly certain we will go ahead with the surgeries, but we don't want to commit to a decision until we know all the details about a heart transplant. I'm at a loss of words on how to explain the huge amount of responsibility we feel - there's so much riding on this decision.

If anyone has information on how to compare hospitals'/surgeons' outcomes for specific surgeries that information could be very helpful for us right now.

My next appointments are April 21st in Eugene and Portland on the 22nd where will have follow-up fetal echocardiogram at both. Right now I'm considered a high-risk pregnancy and will have around four appointments a month, with even more per month as we get closer to delivery. His heart is still growing so they cannot say for sure what he will need and they want to keep an eye on his condition.

I just want to express again that we are so very grateful for the thoughts, prayers, advice, concern, service, support and general outpouring of love we have felt from all of our friends and family we've told about our situation. We love you all and will update you with new information as soon as we receive any. When Jeremy and I decide on a name, I am thinking of making a blog specifically to keep people updated about his condition.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

8th Anniversary!

I've seen a few other people commemorate their anniversary on their blogs and I hope they don't mind if I copy their cute idea. Eight years ago Jeremy and I were sealed in the Portland Temple for time and all eternity. People gawked at our two weeks of dating dating/three month engagement and told us we wouldn't make it past the first three years. It's not just the two of us anymore either. We've added two kids (and a half if you count the one on the way), a house, a car, and a dog - just to name a few things! Jeremy, I felt like the luckiest girl on campus when you asked me out and I'm so glad I still feel that way all these years later. I can't imagine my life without you. I love you tons and I can't wait to see what the next eight years brings. I know it's a lot of pictures but I thought I'd share our engagement photos with all of you:











Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Easter Pics









This was the first year since we moved to Oregon (4 years ago) that we have celebrated Easter at our house. The kids had a lot of fun with Grandma and Grandpa. We actually didn't color Easter eggs until FHE the next day, but don't tell the kids because they still had fun!

Gymnastics, Easter Style

Toddlers are great! You can show up to an Easter egg hunt a few hours late and they still have a blast.